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i have been bullied since i was 5 years old until now at 21 years old… i have been bullied for a total of 16 years and it still continues…. i was bullied at school, home, and even in my marraige i am being bullied and i keep being taunted by everyone i would ditch class and go somewhere else… i would get laughed at and get called names…. i had girls in class to get out of the girls seat because it was where she sat and i moved and i sat somewhere else and put my head down in class and started crying wanting to run out of class and out of the school… that happened in high school…. i got bullied by a boy everyday who would slap me and i would hide in fear because i was scared and i knew if i went to school i would be hit. a girl bullied me and pushed me and i sat down crying another time was when we were in the locker room and these popular kids threw things at me and they were laughing… i had a girl who wrote infront of the class my name and a boys name and said that we were the ugliest couple and i put my head down and cried….these are different times ive been bullied… a girl came up to me and asked me if liked this boy named trent well i didnt answer cause i was shy then she called trent over and asked him if he liked me he said hell no and that i was f***ing ugly so again i put my head down and started crying…. i got bullied by these 4 boys and it was very bad and i cant go into to detail but they sexually harassed me and they tried to rape me but i screamed and they let me go and i ran so fast to my class and i opened the door and sat at my desk and put my head on the desk and cried…. i was bullied by this one girl and her friend so bad i tried to hurt myself and i again shut myself down and cried… when i get bullied i would either hide in different places like the library thanks to the libraryians who watch out for me because she wouldnt let them come inside and harass me…i would hide in the bathroom and cry, ditch school…etc i asked someone why do you think people bully me and she said because i look innocent and that im short well i am only 4 feet 10 inches but still its wrong because people shouldnt be treated that way under no cirumstances… i even get bullied by my family they would hit me and steal my stuff and would use me for money and to get things they want my own family would do this… then i had to deal with more stress at 15 i was diagnosed with manic depression/ bipolar disorder… my family harrassed me even more when they knew i was diagnosed with a mental illness due to abuse and getting bullied to the extreme… till this day they even treat me like this… i hate it… i ask myself everyday what did i do so wrong?? maybe if i had love and support instead of being bullied…etc then i wouldnt have depression…. i even get jumped by my family… the worst thing that happened to me was when i was 4 months pregnant i got jumped by my sister i had to take the beating because i had to cover my stomach to protect my baby but he turned out fine but still i feel the pain from getting abused while being pregnant…. then to make matters worse my mom sent me to a mental hospital everytime i just wanted to talk and express my emotions… my mom has hit me before and choked me and others like my sisters have done that to me also… my sisters hit me because i told her i was tired of being used for money and she started yelling and punching me… another time was when we were at the mall and she asked me to get her some shoes which were about $70 and i said i dont know and she stared saying how selfish i am so i didnt want to get punched so i bought her the shoes… another time my sisters took me over a friends house and my sister dragged me out the car yes she literally dragged me and then my other sister grabbed me and she tried to find a extension cord but all she found was a belt and she beat me so bad with it i had marks all over my back then my other sister took me in another room and jumped me and punched me severley in my face… i ended up not only with marks but with 2 black eyes and alot of knots in my face with a bloody nose… sorry for the long post well theres more but i dont want to remember it